Thanks for the support. As lame as it is, I feel like this online community is the only community I have.

Hey EP, I've been reading as well, but I'm a sensitive guy, so I can handle it. A family member has been struggling with depression for a long time. Lots of different medications have been prescribed, some of them work; it's just a matter of finding the right one. Simplistic solutions to this problem don't work, as you well know, but people like me don't have first hand knowledge and so we don't really know what the hell to do or say. I would guess that your family members care and want to help but don't know how. You sort of have to train them. Tell them your suffering from depression and that "thinking happy thoughts" doesn't work and that it isn't a matter of just willing yourself out of it. If you tell them what they can do, that gives them something to do to try and support you. That's pretty much the end of my wisdom on the matter, but I thought it might give you some insight on what your family is thinking.

Ah doood. Im readin too. It wont do ya any good for me to tell you that in spite of your problems, life gets alot more guttered. Thinkin happy thoughts dont help, i know.
my question to you is this: I have heard that depression proper is a clinical term, and actually signifies a different brain chemistry and/or a chemical imbalance thats not present in us normies (thats what alkies call non-alcoholics) - and if you have this you can get medication to fix it and whatnot...So im just wondering is your depression like the diagnosible clinical kind where meds would be the best option? Everyone hates meds, but one of my best friends is manic, and the meds level himout just fine. Just thought id bringit up, im a fan of drugs as a solution to most problems...

SNGs: 240
Net: +569
ROI: 12%
ITM: 38% (LAAAAAME)

I am getting much better at cash games. Two times today I tripled my stack at the NL25 tables - bringing my stack from $25 to $80. Was tite. But I also lost set versus set, QQ v AA, KK v AA, AQ v AK. SNG donkage was alright. Today was the first day in a few weeks that I played more than 1 hour of poker. HOOORAY!!

I gotta take a huge dump right now. I'll let you know how it turns out.